17 Weeks today. My stomach has very definitely grown, and I'm feeling the baby move at least once or twice every day.
I'm quite liking the being pregnant thing at the moment. I don't know why, I just feel quite calm and positive about it. When I had Dylan I was a nervous wreck the whole way through, and that's odd given there is alot more to consider this time. Daily shots of Fragmin, 4 x daily blood sugar tests, sugar low's, fortnightly jaunts to the hospital, an impending c-section, the list goes on, but none of it is concerning me too much........ yet. Of course the little paranoid voice in my ear is thinking that as this is all going so well something HAS to go wrong either during the pregnancy or with the baby.... blah.
In my quest to avoid all the scary 'this could go wrong' propaganda which is everywhere, in every pregnancy book and web site, I am beginning to worry, a little, that I'm not actually going to be prepared for this baby! With Dylan I read everything I could get my hands on & I was an "expert" on everything by the time he was born. This time I'm not really reading anything, and I have a fear that the baby will come out and I'll be totally unprepared both emotionally and otherwise!
I'm also really getting desperate for this next Ultrasound which is 2 weeks and 2 days away (and counting). I want to know that all looks well with the baby,
And, I have to go to the hospital for 2 blood tests this week - the follow up to the IPS tests, and a CBC (blood count) to check for some rare disorder which can happen as a result of the Fragmin. Not really looking forward to these given that my fingertips bleed for 10 mins every time I test my blood sugar, so a syringe into a vein on my arm is likely to bleed alot longer than that!
So that's basically where we're at right now. Having a good time emotionally bar a few concerns in the back of my mind, keen to get the Ultrasound out of the way, and coping well with all the medical attention which is mostly reassuring rather than irritating.
Posted by katie at February 23, 2004 09:56 AMOh, relax! :-)
Last time you had to read books and everything cuz you'd never done this before. This time, you can look back and realize that you've been there before and your kid turned out so well. You have personal experience and in a lot of ways that's better than anything you can find in a book or on a Web page.
I expect part of the reason for feeling good about things is the care you're getting - like you said about the medical attention being mostly reassuring. I mean, sure, it would be great not to be a high-risk pregnancy, but on the other hand, you know what the level of care you got in your first pregnancy was, and this time you have a team of specialists all over you.
Posted by: Steve at February 23, 2004 11:58 AMI am relaxed, that whole post sounded like I'm not didn't it!! I was trying to say that despite a few nagging concerns I'm feeling overwhelmingly OK, comforted by the level of care, and generally enjoying being pregnant and having a baby in my tum :)
Posted by: katie at February 23, 2004 12:02 PM