I'm really quite tired. No prizes for spotting the enormous understatement there. I'm getting something like 5 hours of sleep per night if I'm lucky, and it's extremely broken sleep at that. I'm not really able to rest during the day either.... I get a couple of hours either side of lunch while D is at school but H is often awake during those times, and if not I tend to fill the time up doing other things because once I sit down I am afraid I'll not want to get up again.
Mostly I'm fine and happy and coping well, please don't think I'm complaining right now because I'm not, but there are times when waves of feeling extremely hopeless overcome me which are entirely exhaustion related.
Take the house for example. It's a total tip. There's crap *everywhere*. I struggle every day to keep on top of the basics like laundry, dishes, etc, but I am too tired to consider doing anything else. Actually that's not true, I'm not too tired to do it but I'm scared that I've so little reserves that if I expend energy tidying & cleaning like a madwoman then I'll collapse and be useless to everyone. G has been too busy to do much either and this place is a disaster. The garden too, the grass is long overdue to be mowed and the flowerbeds need weeding (and watering) and pruning and the place looks unkempt. This afternoon it all got a bit much for me and when G asked me what was quite obviously wrong, I started sobbing that I couldn't cope. Solution? We will spend the weekend together de-cluttering and doing the garden, and a Molly Maid will come on Monday and clean the place thoroughly. It's a weight off my mind, especially as we are going to England next weekend, that I won't have to try to fight my way through all the crap to prepare for the trip, and that I won't have to come back to it after the trip either.
Posted by katie at September 30, 2004 10:57 PMThinking about the lack of sleep due to Spike, the last feed of the night I always brought them into our bed and fed them there. I would be lying down on my side, get them to latch on and then i would go back to sleep and they would fall off when finished. I never had any problems getting them to go to sleep in their cot with this as it was the last one and they had been in there for most of the night already.
Just a thought, but it worked really well for me and I then got to sleep from about 3am to about 7am which i could mentally coap with as it is a more 'real' time to be woken up again for good.