I'm having a really hard time this week and I need to get on that plane and get out of here. I realised last week how much I have missed all my friends here and I'm struggling with that this week, already feeling isolated again, struggling to remove myself from the feeling of belonging, struggling that I have let people in and get close to me again and now I have to leave.
I wrote a few weeks ago about getting sucked into the internet world and that's harder too when I'm here. When I'm away the time zone makes it possible for me to have a life away from the computer, from UKChat and the people who live in it. When I'm here I can't and I spend too much time in this virtual reality. I decided yesterday to forcibly cut myself off from it now so that I can focus on everything else.
On top of all that I feel so out of place right now, I need to get back to having some space of my own where I can rest and relax without constantly doing the wrong thing.
Posted by katie at July 8, 2005 04:07 AM