I thought I should make a note of how much more positive I'm feeling at the moment about things. I hope it will last but I currently feel quite content and feel that I'm beginning to settle.
The new playroom has made a big difference to our house. The living room is no longer cluttered with mountains of toys and has significantly less dirt / dust on the wood floor to deal with every 5 minutes thanks to the lack of small people running around up here. The fact that we have a beautiful new room downstairs full of loads of toys has made the boys happy, and my desk is now down there and it's an enjoyable space to be. It suddenly feels more like 'home'.
I'm seeing a lot of my new British friends, especially by going to the gym 3 x per week and having coffee there after working out. Working out obviously is helping things too, releasing those endorphins and promoting a sense of wellbeing. I'm finding life quite nicely busy.
G is still working hard and isn't home as much as I'd like him to be - he is rarely in before 6.30pm these days and never works from home like he used to in Canada. That's been a tough adjustment for me because I've been used to having him around more. I also think it's a shame for the boys not to see more of him in the evenings, particularly because his weekends have been quite busy with doing DIY. Hopefully as he settles into the job things will improve on that front, but I am at least letting go of some of the frustration and resentment that had built up, the feeling of being moved to a strange place and abandoned..... which was made worse by not feeling that I had any life of my own to get on with. Now at least the latter has improved, thus the former isn't upsetting me as much as it was. But he is trying and hopefully, as I said, things will continue to improve. Another benefit of having the playroom done downstairs now is that the next couple of jobs (hallway / downstairs bathroom) mean that we'll all be down there together at weekends and not separated by a flight of stairs!
I'm off out for lunch with some friends now... hopefully this good humour will continue for a long while to come :o)
Posted by katie at January 27, 2006 02:30 PM