June 18, 2007

Crap

Being really big, really uncomfortable, really exhausted, really in pain, does not = feeling really good emotionally. I feel really blue right now. I'm wrestling with a ton of demons and scared of the impending birth.

Whatever I'm doing to prepare for the baby I have a voice in my head saying it won't be appropriate, my baby will hate it / me, I won't be a good mother, I'll deserve it if the baby is difficult, and all this other horrible negative stuff.

And last night I dreamt that my house tried to kill me by imprisoning me in it, then had a 2nd dream that a vicar came around trying to convert me and when I told him I was agnostic or atheist I hadn't decided, he said I should DIE.

Pass the Prozac?

Posted by katie at June 18, 2007 07:38 PM
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