Not because I have nothing to say, but because I have no time to say it.
Everyone's a bit under the weather this week. Dylan has been off school all week with a cold. Harry threw up last night after complaining that his head hurt, and Tabitha is grotty with a runny nose as of this morning. Great.
I'm still feeling a bit out of sorts. I think since my good friend went home I've felt somewhat lost.... I am getting out there & making lots of effort to see people so that I don't stew about it, but I do feel like nobody's got my back anymore, know what I mean? I guess it's hard to build up really good friendships where you invest lots of time and effort, they don't happen overnight. And when you're a million miles from home, those friendships are your lifeline.
I wouldn't go as far as to say I'm depressed mind you..... but then I'm aware of my 'triggers' for depression at the moment which I haven't been aware of in a long time now. My triggers tend to be people saying or doing negative things about / towards me and when I feel blue I tend to obsess about them and twist them around in my mind over & over again until I drive myself mad 2nd guessing myself and feeling bad about myself. Someone sparked something like this the other day with me and I found I was overly-wound up about it the last few days, which I have identified as being because I am feeling a bit blah anyway...... but I'm hoping that telling myself OK, avoid this trigger situation, if necessary avoid this person, will suffice in pulling me out of it. That and tons of Vitamin B of course.
Posted by katie at November 21, 2007 02:42 PM